P.s. yes this is for you! I’m not being subtle. I’m telling you that it is not ok to keep me in the dark, only to find out in fb that you have planned trips or expenses. That you have had exciting weekends that probably cost money. Get your act together! Get a job and quit blaming the world. Be creative and do not be impulsive.

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Paki baba na lang ng bagong kilay ko…

Here goes.  There was the:

1. Change of job (what I’ve wanted for such a long time) which includes the pay hike (yay!) and the more-in-tune-with-what-I’ve-done-and-not-a-junior role;
2. Then there was the change of home address (3 times, if I may add);
3. Oh, and there was my first relatively “big” move in making an investment (FTW);
4. Unfortunately, there were “linoko mo ako” moments (no, this was not love related; yes, it was quite serious) (WTF);
5. And finally, just as the last quarter approached, there was suddenly a change of heart. And the world was bright and happy again.  And welcoming 2012 was more in tune with my personal commitment to being responsible for my own happiness.

It’s been forever since I last posted, but what else is new? 

Ayusin dapat ang “Christmas text” kay girlaloo/boylaloo. Wag mashadong pa-demure, wag pa-give away and most importantly, Landi moderately!

Eto ang guidelines for #ChristmasText.

1. Pag crush mo talaga, send the text twice para sure-shot
2. Isa isang MWAH lang.. pag double mwah, buking ka!
3. Mwah + smiley is acceptable because it’s Christmas naman so you can push the limit ng konti
4. Instead of “i love you”, send “labyu” or “labshoo” para safe.. you can add “haha” sa dulo for ultra safe mode!
5. Banatan mo ngayong palang ng malupet na msg but dont forget to put the words “before the networks get busy..” sa start
6. If ur torpe, u can do the “fake call” method: missed call lang then sabay txt, “i wanted to call u sana but i couldnt get thru so txt nalng”
7. For the malakas loob: CALL him/her at midnight! start with a malanding “hey” then, “just wanted to be the 1st to greet u a Merry Christmas”
8. LANDI MODERATELY: DONT combine ‘mwah’, ‘hehe’ and ‘:)’ in one msg! just choose 2 out of the 3!
9. You can use the line “you know what..i prayed for you during the Christmas mass” BUT don’t forget the “hehehehe” after!
10. Limit your landi #christmastexts to 3 girlaloos/boylaloos.. edit edit mo ng konti. Manila is too small.. baka mabuking ka!
11. ENTER the NAME before typing the message to avoid WRONG SEND! patay ka kung malandi ang message mo tapos sa iba napadala
12. Ok lang ang “i miss you” pero mas malupet ang “i wish you were here with me now”.. don’t forget the HEHE after!
13. Kung away mo ng smiley, pwede rin ang heart icon ” <3
14. To keep the texting going.. make sure may question sa dulo. Example: “so, did you open your gifts na?”
15. Never include girlaloo/boylaloo in the generic text list… dapat special para naman may kilig factor!
16. Compose mo na ang message ngayon palang para mamaya, SEND nalang! Mahirap mag-isip during Noche Buena or pag laseng!
17. Pag hindi nagreply, wala na tayong magagawa..basta do your part. Wag mo na tanong if he/she got your message.. bahala sya!
18. If girlaloo/ boylaloo replies, wait at least 5 minutes para you don’t look atat and kunyari busy-busy ka.. for calls, wait for 5 rings
19. LASTLY.. NEVER say the words “I love you” if you don’t mean it or if you’re drunk! Gulo yan! Ayusin natin mga buhay natin!

Just random things I read.   :

And another saying, tell me who your friends are, and I’ll tell you who you are. I disagree.

That’s how far I’ll go with my updates.

But do you know my dreams? What makes me truly happy, and what “word” can bring me down? What do I fear the most and where do I really want to be? What makes me cry, over and over? And how do I see myself, and the people around me? Do you know the hurts I’ve been, the joys that I love to reminisce about?

Do you know me? Because, really if you don’t, let’s not kid ourselves. Just say you don’t know me.  ”You don’t know me.”  And it’s okay. That’s not because of you. That’s because of me.

You see, I don’t even know me.

Here now is my top 5.

1. Going Solo.  Ever since I moved to Singapore, I’ve shared a room with some girls (eventually just one girl).  This year, the unit that we were renting, decided that we could preterminate our lease contract.  So mid June, we were scouting for a place to move on, and decided that each of us went our separate ways.  That included me and my roomie.  I’m now living solo (okay so I’m sharing the house with X number of people) but at least the room I can actually call my own.
2. Boracay race + party.  Ye-es. My first trip to Bora would not have been as fun and exciting without FDS.  It was a league of its own. A party like no other. And if ever there was only one race I could participate in, year after year, it would be Boracay.
3. Big Kids. I went into a rut this year.  At one point, I felt like I pushed everybody away, and didn’t mind going all alone and lonely. I can call it my “maldita mode-on”, but in actuality, it was more of letting go of the toxic people in my life. *I keep doing a lot of this lately, actually.  Maybe it comes with age?*  However, no man’s an island, and I’m grateful for the “Big Kids”, who have given balance to my life and become people I’ve learned to love.
4. As disappointing as it is, 2010 has not been a good year at work.  If I were to take responsibility for all the “palpaks” that has happened, then yeah, I’ll accept my fate.  However, I did not feel any recognition either in all the achievements I’ve accomplished.  And like the company before this, it’s time to move on.
5. 41. A short period of happy days, confusing moments, anger bursts, and pleasures beyond pleasure.  I can’t regret if it were my choice as well.  But avoidance route, not my brightest hour.  Lessons learnt, fine.

That’s all for now.  Happy New Year, folks.

Yes, tao po ako. Nakakaramdam ng sakit pag…
- napagiwanan
- napagsabihan
- nasaktan
- nabastos
- hindi binigyan ng halaga
- napabayaan
- nasakal
- nagselos
- napahiya
- natapakan ng pride o ng ego

at higit sa lahat…

pag nasiraan ng mahal na telepono.  ** Sa susunod na kwentuhan na lang yan.

Tao lang po ako. At kahit maraming paraan para mapigilan o maiwasan ng masaktan, mangyayari pa din yun. Hindi dahil ginusto, it’s just the way it is. Tao lang ako, at tao lang din naman ang mga nasa paligid ko. May mga hindi naman nanadyang manakit, at meron din naman yung mga ikinatutuwa pag nalalaman nilang nandudurusa ako. Pero ayus lang yun. Sila yun.

Kaya pagbigyan mo na ako kung minsan nag e-emote ako, nag whi-whine o umiiyak. Dahil di ko rin naman ginusto yun. Pabayaan mo na lang ako matuto sa mga pagkakamali, ma-get over ang mga di makatarungan at malagpasan ang negatibong emosyon. Pabayaan mo kong maramdaman ang lungkot at ang sakit, para maranasan ko ang tunay na kakayanan kong tumayo, magpatawad (ng kapwa at ng sarili), at matuto. Pana-panahon lang yan. Minsan masaya, at minsan hindi.

Kung tunay kang kaibigan, kung tunay kang nagmamahal, kaya mong magtiwala na magiging okay ako, kaya mong makinig pag kailangan kita, at kaya mo kong pagsabihan pag hindi ako natuto (wag naman masyadong harsh, malungkot nga ako diba). At minsan ang kinakasakit ko ay dahil nasaktan kita, so sana kaya mo din magpatawad.

Salamat sa pag intindi at sa pagunawa.