Until I realized, it’s not so bad to shine after all.

From bottom 3 to top 4… how’s that for improvement?

ang lungkot.

pakshet, ang quezo ko. haha.

Yan ang Kaibigan

As before, this is our year end review that Kris and I (with her hubby Harv recently joining in), share with each other.  It had to be 5 big events (good or bad) that has happened to us.

My previous recorded 5’s are here and here and hopefully I get to document future ones.  Only because it gives quite a nice summary, year per year.

Without any further ado, (drum roll please) here’s my 5:

1. Filipino Dragons Singapore (or FDS) as mentioned in a previous entry.  For the first time in my entire life, I’m part of a sports team.  One that (for the sports bit) trains hard, competes, loses graciously and wins spectacularly.   In relation, there’s the definite weight loss/gaining of muscles/evening of tan, that comes with the love of the sport.  But wait, there’s more.  Ever since I’ve joined, I’ve upped my social scene with this group who tends to party as hard as we train.  Without FDS this year, life would have definitely be less fun.
2. A project at work where I received a considerable amount of criticisim, attention (both good and bad), rewards and finally appreciation. 
3. Canada did not want me.  Neither did Singapore.  Just as I was making progress with planning, I went back to square 1.
4. This year, mostly with FDS, meant meeting loads of new people.  But sad - yes, I’m sad - that I also lost a few.  Losing in this case, meant losing touch (the lack of proximity really played a part in losing friends who I used to see every so often), or simply letting go of people who used to mean a lot.  Of course, there’s the saying people come and go, but what made this a big part of my 2009 was the amount of emotional investment I went through for each of the losses.  Much like a break up (maybe even a little worse), there was the feeling of sadness, resentment, betrayal, revenge, losing of trust, to finally giving up.  The feeling has now plateau-d to acceptance giving way to civil politeness.  
5. Naiwanan ako ng eroplano.  This is definitely my kick-myself-in-the-butt moment.  Don’t want to go through the details, but this lack of responsibility caused me money which is a a domino effect to the happenings in the next 4 months of 2010. 

2009 was not the best year for me, and I’m excited to get it over and done with, finally.  But I am optimistic of the silver lining waiting to happen. 

That done, and my blog is alive once again. 

Happy New Year, folks!

hello once again, and this time, diary, i give you full permission to kick me in the butt for being too “busy” to forget about you.

but never mind about that. here we go for a short update.

well, it’s almost christmas and i’m in the Philippines, ooh yes. i came to see one of my oldest friend get hitched. i’m, yet again, a bridesmaid, but this time, i think it’s going to be the “last”. well at least not for a very long time, if ever. maybe it’s an end of an “era”. most of my friends are either hitched, or just won’t ever be. welcome now to the babies and children’s birthdays world. not to sound, bitter that is.

anyway, as said, my friend’s getting hitched and i’m home for the wedding. i promised to make sure that i take care of the bride, while the maid of honor goes and chases, este, takes care of her son. i had my first and only fitting of my gown last wednesday, and bought my shoes this afternoon. i still have 2 days to pretty up, with the manis, pedis and all that. i’m actually excited. i’m a sucker for bridal marches and i hope to catch a glimpse of my friend just as she walks down. the bouquet toss (if there will be one) is another story. i hope i don’t sound too much like a kj and say i’m not interested in this one. i’m slightly thankful also that this is not a “relatives” reunion and i won’t have the regular “ikaw, iha, kailan ka susunod”. well aside from the brides mom. but that, i think, i should be able to handle.

on another note, i’m mostly on vacation mode. this is the first time i’m on a long enough leave to pinas (since i started working in singapore), so i’m taking my time with the things i planned to do. take note my leaves to pinas have consisted from a day trip to a max of 5 days. so yeah, a 2 week vacation is something.

so if you ask me, what am i planning to do here? well aside from the wedding and major resting, there’s the shopping, the pampering, the fiesta-ing, and of course the reunions.

see you *soon*, my silent diary.

In fairness, di naman ako nag bubukid (laro or otherwise).  So di naman ako na-gigilty pag sinabi nilang puro laro lang daw ginagawa dito.  Slight guilt lang.  Pabasa-basa sa mga status, paupdate-update ng mga ginagawa, pachat-chat na lang sa mga online din.  Pero not all the time.  Sometimes lang.  Pag wala ng ginagawa (minsan lang naman yun eh).  Kaya nakakapikon na biglang, wala na.  Hinarang na ang access.  Goodbye, mukhang libro.  Wala ka ng pwesto dito sa opisina.  Makikita na lang kita pag uwi ko ng bahay.

Heniweis, ganun siguro talaga buhay.  Kailangan ng konting bawal, mas lalo na sa opisina.  Disiplina daw, para mas maging productive.  **Hindi kita binabayaran para mag payaman sa farm mo!** Pero syempre, mas gugustuhin ko na lang umuwi ng maaga kesa mag “multi tasking” dito, diba?  Howel, howel. 

Masamang epekto ng mukhang libro na yan.  Napagblog ako ng wala sa oras.   Eh ang gusto ko lang naman gawin kaya ko nalaman na wala na akong access, ay mag iwan ng status message na: “salamat sa mukhang libro, eto na lang ang nagpapasaya sa akin pag tapos ng mahabang araw.”

Hais.